I do really well with chaos. I can jumpstart the logical side of my Type A brain and put that bad boy into overdrive.
I used to think that was a good thing, and then I learned that it was my defense mechanism—logic on, emotions off.
To jumpstart the logical side of my brain, I had to shut down the emotional side.
As the emotions would surface, I would push them back down and tell myself I would deal with them later.
Guess what- when you do not allow later to happen, your body does it for you.
My body started to fail; my mind started to fail; everything in my life started to fail.
I was really good with chaos because I needed to be to survive, but the actual battle was learning how to turn off overdrive.
For far too long, I continued to live my life feeling like I was in the eye of the storm, waiting for the next rush of wind to knock me off my feet.
It took me far too long to learn that I actually was not living life; I feared it.
I finally gave myself permission to thrive, and now I give you permission too.
Allow yourself to thrive.
Allow yourself to change.
We may never be able to control chaos, but we can learn to embrace it.